Kuro-Koneko-chan

It's quiet now. In a way, that's worse because now I am left with nothing but my thoughts to fill my head, so I sit and I replay them, every word. It's never anything important and nothing is ever communicated, so I can't help but wonder, at times like this, why do we even bother to speak when nothing is said? I have to fill the space with something else and I can't scream, so I'll punctuate my thoughts with heavy drumbeats, violins, guitars. I'll cover my ears and tune out, and tune in to my own world.

Hormonal. That’s what they call it at least. As if between twelve and twenty, we cease to be humans and become a temporary species, Hormo sapiens. “She’s at that age.” The only explanation needed for my bad mood. So, if I’m angry, crying, or just too quiet, don’t worry – I’ll get over it, once I hit my twenties.

A girl is walking in the empty corridor, but something is wrong. She walks a little too fast, she's a little too hesitated. It's making her stumble, making her jump away from something you wont see. Almost as if she's haunted. A shadow strikes by. A glance of a stranger she once knew everything about. She closes her eyes, walking faster, trying to escape, trying to get out of here. But it's all in her head you see, it's all just for her, almost as if she's haunted. Voices, laughter, a secret promise so filled with love, she can hear it all far too well. But it's only a little girl, so defenseless, so scared, in this empty corridor. Alone bu

Love Hurts ... I walk in the corridor with books pressed against my stomach and a long-sleeved shirt, because it says that it is better that way. It says that I have such hairy arms that I might as well be the missing link. It says I'm ugly, fat, that I really belong in one of those TV programs for extremely overweighted. I believe it. Just like I always do. My little voice. Now when I go there in the hallway, what I always long for happens. That is what makes me get up in the morning. That is what makes me yearn for school. But it is also by far the worst thing that can happen to me. That's when I most certainly will hear it. I m